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Hi Steve,

Well, last night I woke up at 5:30 a.m. because of a very vivid dream that I was

having.  You see, for some reason, my ex-boyfriend Peter invades my dreams from time to time, but THIS time it was different.  Usually, he's walking away from me, or across a room or hard to get to, and he seems angry. (Our relationship did not end very well...he hurt me, so I said things that hurt him back, like an idiot). I regret that now.  I wish I could tell him I'm sorry. I just don't think it would matter to him anymore.

This time in my dream, however, I spotted him standing nearby at a hotel, he was at the check-in desk, and I was standing in front of the elevator down the hall.  I turned and saw him, and my heart skipped a beat, then I did a double-take, and thought, "Oh my God, it's really him...it's now or never."  So I walked over to him, smiling, and he did a double-take, and smiled, and I reached out to hug him.  "I knew our paths would cross again someday," I said.

To my surprise, he reached out to hug me back...and I said to him, "I have missed you so much..." and he said, "You'll never know how hard it was to let you go. I've missed you too."  And in that moment, when we hugged, I could SMELL him, and I could FEEL his hug, as if he were right next to me in my bed, and I instantly knew that we had forgiven each other for the not-so-pleasant way we had ended our relationship. Then, I felt extremely relieved, and happy.

I also knew at some point my husband Pete would wander in with our suitcases, but I wanted the two of them to meet each other. (I did in real life too, but it never happened).  Peter was still hugging me, for quite a long time, and he whispered close in my ear---I could really FEEL the hot breath of his words, in a baritone voice... "You know I still want you."  That's the same tone of voice he used when we were intimate together.  My eyes lit up, and I was thrilled...the same throbbing, aching desire was there, that he always made me feel....but then, as I saw Pete come in the door, I woke up.

But I lay there, expecting Peter to be in the room. I looked around, it felt like he really had been there....my heart was beating so fast, and I was still smelling the cologne that Peter wore all the time...it was so real...it really felt like he had BEEN here, in my room, standing over me...

And then I turned to look over at Pete lying beside me, and I felt horribly guilty.

Soooooo that's how MY day began. I couldn't go back to sleep until about 7:30 because my brain just went over and over that dream...

I don't know why Peter still haunts me like that. But that was the best dream about him that I've had in 5 years. I just don't tell Pete about them.  No point in it.  I can't help what I dream, nobody can really.  Nothing we can do about it.  But it freaked me out for nearly 2 hours until I actually fell asleep again.

Oh well.  In other news.....apparently Pittsburgh PA isn't GOOD ENOUGH for Arnel Pineda's new film to be shown anywhere in any theater at all.  It's in Ohio, DC, and Virginia, but not here.  SIGH.  It just bugs me.  I had wanted to go see it this weekend.

So last night I was on Facebook (yeah yeah yeah, I know, "so what else is new?), but just HUSH yourself my friend...and I saw this photo....it cracked me up!!!

So of COURSE I had to comment on it....I wrote:

"In this episode, Arnel Pineda stars as Gilbert Godfried!" (It apparently got a lot of likes from other people a few minutes later).  I laughed about it too!

Then I wrote, "Arnel says, "AFLAC, BEYOTCH!"  

And then I felt kinda guilty and wrote another comment, "Just kiddin' Arnel, you're cool...love ya!"

But what a couple of TURDS---Neal and his new wife are being attention whores again.  Neal's smile is fake, as always, and she's mugging at the camera, as always.

I am bummed that Arnel's movie isn't going to be anywhere near Pittsburgh. SIGH. And then I sit here and wonder, "Would Steve Perry go and see that film?"

Well, would you??  

I'd be interested to know your thoughts about it.  Someday when we meet again, (and we will, I'm sure of it), we'll have to dish the dirt about that.

Among OTHER things...(wink wink, nudge nudge, say no more)!! WOOOOO!!!

Anyway, I'm off to the wild blue yonder.  

Have a great weekend my friend, and know that I'll always love ya.

----Rebecca