Wow the sun has finally come out and the temperature has warmed up a lot in the past week. I'm glad of that. It does help my mood a bit. I have had to force myself to get up and get outside, to get some things done around the house, like set up our back porch area.
Needless to say, since I have already revealed to you a long time ago that I am one of those "Highly Sensitive People" on this godforsaken planet, I have been extremely depressed since the explosions in Boston. I have been reading about the personal stories of people who were one minute, running in a race, and the next minute, had no legs. It just kills me, my heart actually aches. The sweet looking eight year old boy who died, too, made me feel like my heart had been shredded.
Another thing that makes my heart ache is the stupid news media 24 hour coverage, where they are making UP things, and RACIALLY PROFILING a suspect that doesn't even EXIST at this point. CNN speculated that it was a "brown man," of some kind, and Faux News said it was a Saudi terrorist, etc., which just makes me sick. Finally the FBI slapped them all down by saying NO ONE HAS BEEN CAUGHT OR ARRESTED OR HELD AS A SUSPECT YET, SO KNOCK IT OFF. Hooray for the FBI. All those news stations are doing is causing more fear, and upset, and stirring the racism turds that float around ignorant people in this country. However, cynically, the FBI should thank them for creating more job security for them in the long run.
I am trying not to dwell on all the chaos and the upset....remember my last post? When I said that as soon as those explosions happened, the police SHOULD have been scouring the rooftops to look for the criminal(s) who did it? Well, take a look at this.....
NOW do you think I'm being paranoid??? He was watching the entire scenario unfold, relishing in his hard work and planning, and getting a BONER from it, I guarantee it. Whomever that guy is, SHOULD be the suspect they are looking for, in my opinion, but hey what do I know, I'm not a cop.
So the day AFTER the bombings, this is what Neal Schon posted on his Facebook page....
NOT ONE WORD WAS WRITTEN BY HIM ABOUT THE BOMBINGS IN BOSTON. NOT ONE WORD AT ALL. And the last time I checked, he STILL hadn't mentioned it. What a total DOUCHEBAG. The entire fucking COUNTRY is in shock and mourning, but he posts THIS drivel about his stupid hag girlfriend and the headline above them in Times Square. What a narcissistic pig. That's all that matters to him, his stupid soap opera farce of a love life. Now, to be somewhat fair, Pete says, "Give him the benefit of the doubt, that was probably something already planned months ago, contracts signed, etc., to appear in Times Square like that. I'm sure he didn't deliberately time it to happen like that." But, I'm really not so sure. I mean, it wasn't quite a month ago that this apology happened.
All I know is, the way some of these idiots on this planet have reacted to this Boston terrorism attack is appalling, disgusting, and just plain SHAMEFUL. Not to mention the assholes in the Senate who did NOT approve of the background checks for purchasing of guns. They should kiss their sorry asses goodbye now, because in 2014, they will NOT be re-elected by 90% of Americans who wanted that legislation approved. They have officially shot themselves in the foot, pun intended. It's just DISGUSTING that these OLD WHITE MEN (yourself excluded of course), are in charge of this country, and are FUCKING IT UP BEYOND ALL RECOGNITION. I'm sick and damned TIRED of it. I'm fed up. I want to DO SOMETHING but what the HELL can I do?? I feel so frustrated.
Anyway, so maybe----JUST MAYBE----Neal will start to feel something towards other people's pain and suffering, and might write something about it on his Facebook page. I'm not holding my breath. I really should unfriend that jerk though, he just pisses me off daily with his stupid gibberish and BS.
Well, I have to get away from the computer and all the bad news and crap going on in the world, and focus on making MY LITTLE WORLD a nicer one, by getting our porch set up with sisal rugs, and wicker furniture. We are having a breakfast party in a couple weeks, so I want it to be ready by then. For me, it's all just a distraction, otherwise I would be laying in bed crying all the fucking time. I can't let myself give in to being depressed, so I try to keep myself busy.
With camp only a month away---THANK GOD----I have several projects to get ready to bring along, and packing to do. So I am hoping with the onset of spring and the nicer weather, the distracting projects and camp to look forward to, perhaps I will make it through this awful time in our country and figure out how the hell to DO something about all the injustice and unfairness and wrong doing.
I wish to hell I didn't give a shit. I wish I didn't have this chronic "save the world" syndrome, because it only drives ME to the point of insanity. Nobody ELSE seems bothered to do it though, so somebody HAS to. I just wish God had chosen somebody stronger than me to worry about it all the time.
Hope you have a good week, Steve, and I also hope you'll enjoy the weekend. Get out and breathe some fresh air, if you're having feelings of overwhelming hopelessness and frustration like many Americans are right now. Try to console yourself like I am, by working on a project....say, perhaps a new ALBUM???? Just a thought.
Oh, and before I go, here's one last thought that makes me happy to have you in my life:
YOU, dear Stephen, are that love and joy for me.
Bye for now.
Love, Rebecca
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