Happy New Year!!!
Yes, I did make my hat, thankyouverymuch. This is a selfie, taken while at a party. I'm truly a dork!
So, did you go out and about and have some fun to celebrate? Or are you still rather saddened by not having Kellie by your side to see the new year in? I really hope you were able to have a little fun, despite the sadness….I know that sadness never really goes away, but sometimes you need to just put it on the shelf and focus on a more positive way to spend your time. It won't go away, it'll always be there, but you don't need to grasp it so tightly for so long. Believe me, I'm doing the same thing right now too.
Walking into the club in DC last weekend, the first photo on the wall that I see is of Jeff, with Bree. Instant sadness.
Then my friend Rachel at the Museum posted a photo of Manya on Facebook. My heart hurt.
Then I get home and see photos of my mother-in-law, Florence, who also died this past year. I really loved her.
So, I really do know how hard it is to be happy on a holiday when those you know and love aren't alive to share it with you anymore.
By all rights, Jeff was too damned young to have to go through such a sad time wasting away in a hospital for three months. And your Kellie was too young to have to die too. It's just not fair. I mean, Florence and Manya were in their late 80's and early 90's. It's still sad to lose them, but they had long lives and created a nice family for themselves. Jeff and Kellie never had that chance.
It truly hurts.]]
So I send you a cyber hug, my sweet troubadour….a hug and a big, wet, sloppy kiss too.
I got to sit in a hot tub with a bunch of naked people, ate lasagna and garlic toast for dinner (which is very rare for me), and got a very nice (and much needed) flogging, spanking, and all-round happy fun time with my friend Michael. (No, there was no sex involved, silly). That's not what it's all about.
My friend Michael is a drummer, so he likes to do rhythmic spanking, which is actually quite therapeutic. You'd probably enjoy it too….I mean, you probably would rather DO it to someone, than have it done TO you….but then again, it's hard to say…you might like it both ways. It really is nice.
Ah well, anyway, so now I have a nasty cold. I've been coughing and runny nosed, with a sore throat and sinus headaches. But, I slept for 12 hours last night so I feel a little better today. Still taking medicine though. Still sleepy too. Might go take a nap.
Luckily for me, I get to be all alone---down time!!----because Pete has gone to Rochester NY today to bring his kids some furniture we had in our garage, and then from there he is driving down to DC to take Judy to NY to see the play with Patrick Stewart in it.
I had a surprise birthday party for Pete on the 30th, he had no clue! We had about 10 people here, and we had some food, and played Cards Against Humanity. (I love that game)!! It's hilarious!!
Anyway, I guess I'd better go take a nap. I'm rather exhausted from such a long and busy weekend.
I love ya Steve. Cheer up, and start the new year out with some happy thoughts and memories. Then set them gently on that shelf, with the sadness, and get busy moving on to the next thing that makes you happy. Come to Pittsburgh, and take some time to chill and just refresh yourself here with me. I think we both need some down time. Bye for now.
Love, Rebecca
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